I don't know if it's the fact that my babies are growing up or the vast differences in ages and stages that's making my desire for time to slow down so overwhelming.
The babies are growing into kids and becoming more independent each day.
That part is easy, but in-between removal of training wheels and sleepless toddler nights my oldest is turning into a woman faster than I can comprehend.
I'm cheering the toddlers on to childhood and at the same time silently begging for time to stand still with the Big.
I'm so ready for a full nights sleep, first days of kindergarten and sleeping in because the little's are big enough to get cereal or turn on the TV, but I know the reality of this means Big will be on her way to independence.
I'm NOT ready for drivers licenses, high school, proms, first dates, college or moving out.
Somewhere in the shitstorm of 2 new babies and surviving life with them my first baby grew up and I feel like I missed it.
Kaitlynn, thank you for making me a mom for the first time. Thank you for not being breakable and bouncing when we dropped you. Thanks for being such a good baby that you l tricked me into thinking I knew what I was doing.
Terrorists- thank you for not completely driving me insane all of the time. Thank you for making it so crazy that we didn't have time worry about the cluster that was/is our daily lives. THANK YOU for FINALLY crapping in a toilet and saving me from one more day of that shit....literally.
Its bittersweet watching each of you grow up. While I'd like to keep you all little and protected, I cannot wait to meet the adults that you each become (unless one of you is in jail - I don't want to meet that one....just run away now)